Soooo, graduation! I'm going to pee in my pants, it's only four days away! What am I supposed to do after everything I've known is gone? It pretty much already is...we're not in school anymore and nothing feels the same. Not just school either. As much as I hate to admit it, I SOOOOOO miss the old Party City. The days when Randy controlled the music station and I knew every word to every song. The effing days when they made me go out dressed as some pirate whore on the corner of Broad. Why did everything change so drastically? And for the worse? I miss the newness of everything. The feeling you get when you find out your next classes for the year, or...well I don't miss my first Halloween at Party City. Except when I caught those guys shoplifting...that's it. I don't miss being bitched at or not knowing what to do and having to ask so many freaking questions. I guess I don't have to worry about that anymore, I quit like two months ago? I don't even remember...it's weird how it's hard to keep track of time when you're not on a constant schedule. Mmm, beach week. I'm excited for that. I'm excited for William and Mary and visiting everyone...and still keeping in touch with everyone (shut up, it might happen). I like hearing a song on the radio that was played SO many times at Party City. I like to think things could go back to that, or so that's what I told myself and reassured myself and didn't actually come to the realization that people move on until I finally quit. Is it bad that I have absolutely no idea what I want to be doing in the next ten years? I want to go to graduate school, too, but after that I have no idea. I've always wanted to be a teacher, but then I've always been into science and like forensic science. But more recently, teaching Spanish, or helping Spanish-speaking children learn English. Or being an interpreter. I don't know...that kinda sounds unrealistic. Gaah I really do miss a lot of things I thought I wouldn't. It's weird how you want to rush through things and take everything for granted. Maybe it's dumb that all I talked about in this entry was Party City and high school, but they're both gone and I miss them. I have the thought process of a three year old. And apparently I'm really ADD.
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